Hi everyone, I'm new to the site. I came across it because I want to order another set of Linda's books (I've lent mine to my mom and she loves them so she'll hang on to them). I need some insight or advice...

I'm a Cappy (January 3, 1973; Windsor, Ontario, Canada; born in the morning) and the past year has been hell. Lots of ups and downs, lots of changes. Not to say I haven't had some miracles happen in the last year, I've met some great people, I've had my prayers answered often. But it's been difficult because for every ounce of good, I feel there's a pound of bad.

I met a Leo (August 3, 1974; Nimes, France; no idea of time of birth) end of July 2001, we've been together ever since. We love eachother. The chemistry that led us to meeting was intense. Although we sometimes finish eacohter's sentences and understand each other really well, there are times when we have utter chaos, one of us or both ends up feeling rejected or deeply hurt.

This week we both seem to feel like we're the one making all the effort and that the other has hurt us.

When things are good between us, it's positively amazing - to the point that strangers come to tell us it's nice to see two people so in love. When the relationship derails, we can't eat or sleep or work properly. We're so close yet we can't find the balance to communicate in hard times.

We're instinctively drawn to eachother. What do the stars say? Do we know eachother from a past life? I think he's been deeply hurt before I came into his life, and that it's keeping him from being stable with me, how can I reach him and help erase the bad that's been done?

I'd appreciate any insights. Thank you.

Hi Nika, welcome to Lindaland!

Without accurate birth times a synastry comparison is missing all of the house information and angle contacts, but I took a quick glance at your solar charts and saw a couple of things that might be useful. You have a lot of positive harmonious contacts, including a lot of Saturn and Pluto aspects which generally indicate karmic (past life) connections. Moon-Pluto aspects in particular can show the emotional impact of karmic connections, and this could explain some of the push-pull energy between you: his Moon trines your Pluto (harmony) but your Moon squares his Pluto (friction). The former carries forward strong bonds and mutual affection, but the latter can indicate some "unfinished business" between the two of you - hurtful actions or broken promises that were not resolved in the past.

Other karmic indicators that show how this tension might manifest include his Pluto square your Sun, and his Saturn opposite your Moon. Pluto square Sun, can creates a strong "tug of war" friction between your personalities having to do with dominance and control. It can work both ways, but is most likely to show up as him doing things that make you feel he is trying to control or manipulate you in some way, which you rebel strongly against. His Saturn opposing your Moon could reinforce this tension, making you sensitive to what feels like criticism or discipline from him. The best way through this kind of tension is for you to gently remind him that he loves you for what you are, rather than digging in your heels and resisting by butting heads.

On the positive side you definitely have a strong psychic or telepathic bond, with his Moon sextile your Neptune. Some of the chaotic intensity of the connection can be explained by his Moon trine your Uranus -- but that's a good thing if you can handle the energy. Here's what Linda said about this aspect:

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Your emotions are stimulated by the rather far-out events you continually experience, creating a powerful magnetic pulse between you. It's an inspirational and stimulating vibration in business, friendship or family associations, but when found in the charts of lovers or mates, it bestows a rare blessing. In addition to loving each other, you also like each other.

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Love,
Greg

Greg, thank you so much for your time & comments.

As I was a premature baby and my mom had a car accident prior to the pregnancy, damaging her vertebrae (narrowly escaped paralysis), they gave her a lot of medication to rest. So over the years I've heard everything from I was born around 6am to I was born around 8:30am. A few years back, I called the hospital where I was born to see if they had records to tell me my time of birth, but unfortunately they no longer had them.

Just curious, as I was 2.5 months early, does that mean anything regarding my stars. Did I choose that date? My mom's a Sun Scorpio - Moon Scorpio, and she'd always wished for a girl born on Jan 3, taller than her, with freckles (eventhough they dont run in the family)... and that's what she got.

The first time I saw my boyfriend David, he registered on a deep level, but I was sad and empty and healing from a heartbreak earlier in the year. I saw him the next time I went to the cafe he works at, I could feel the energy and light expanding. I couldn't believe our luck. And those early moments before we even spoke, when we looked into eachothers eyes it felt like there was a whirlpool between us which pulled us and the energy in. So that even though we were meters apart, the distance seemed to disappear.

You're absolutely right, I feel criticized and like he's disciplining me. I try to remember that it's just his hurt and love getting expressed in a way that is unlike mine. I try to convert the things to what they really mean, instead of how I'm reacting.

I tend to magnify and reflect the energy around me. I'm already a senstive person, so when with someone like him who is so easily hurt, I hurt more too. Not only am I hurt by those things which would normally affect me, but then also by those which I know affect him.

I haven't been resisting. I've been focusing on the connection we had when we met. Unfortunately early on, I destabilized our foundation unknowingly by talking about a male friend with whom the friendship was ending, so I had a lot of pent up emotion there. When I told stories about this friend which to me were reflections of how this friend was unaware and selfish, my boyfriend took my attentions as a longing for this other person.

I had lost my faith in people. I hadn't expected anyone to really reach me anymore. Then when we were on cloud 9, I thought it was evident that I was crazy for my Leo. Meanwhile he felt second to my friend and my work. And as the king of the jungle, he feels I'm not paying him the respect that he pays those he loves.

I underestimated the depth, character and wisdom of my Leo boyfriend.

We want the same things, we have the same morals, yet our perceptions of the little things are different then they go off on a tangent because of the unstable foundation and our relative insecurities or fears.

He thinks that I'm not making an effort, when I'm giving it all the effort a stubborn cappy can give. And I'll tell you I recognized myself in Linda's description of a Cappy girl. Still waters run deep, I'm having trouble expressing to him the extent that he's touched me. He senses it, that's why he's hanging onto a situation that gives him such turmoil in his mind & heart. What he feels isn't matching what he sees as my actions. So he's focussed on the fact that something doesn't equate, that I must be being dishonest.

His ex cheated on him, denied it during their 2 year relationship, but admitted it to him 8 months after they broke up, and 1.5 months after he and I met.

I would love to be able to "remind him that he loves [me] for who [I am]", but his response is that he thought I was someone good & real, only to be so disappointed, and he doesn't know who I am anymore. He feels that we're not playing on the same team, it's not us against the world because I let all this junk (my friend, my work etc) get between us. I've waited so many years to find someone who thinks the same way as me, us against the world, our love stronger than anything. When I finally found him, I keep dropping the ball at key moments.

I've wounded him. When he needed to feel that I was by his side and supporting him, I had let him down. I was so paralyzed by the fear of doing the wrong thing, I was so focussed on our feelings that I didn't do the simple thing I was supposed to do. He felt the fool in a social situation because I hadn't pointed out my friend in the crowd, and he felt that he was being mocked by me and this so-called friend of mine. I found out later that my "friend" had been rude and mocking, in a male territorial way. I hadn't seen that at the time.

And the psychic bond, you're right we've got it. That's what perplexes us both that we could be so in tune and connected and then so out of tune that a simple conversation leads to many emotional and consequential misunderstandings.

I just can't seem to reach him. I'm always two steps behind. Usually, with other people the reverse is true. So I'm at a loss in this new territory.

Sorry for the long ramblings. Thanks again for your response & for listening.

Light & good health to you,
Nika

Nika, i hope you don't mind me putting my two cents in but the way you are describing the situation here makes me feel that you are not seeing it as clearly as you could... I personally feel that you are doing all you can ( this is very clear ) and that you are bending over backwards for this guy and that this guy is not giving you a break at all! He does sound manipulative ( not saying he is a bad guy, i am sure that he is nice since you feel that the two of you have a lot in common and you are obviously so nice, but maybe he can't help doing it and it is still uncoscious for him... or he does not know how else to be...). If you mentioned a guy you used to be involved with it is no big deal, you should not feel bad about that in any way. I am sure you have done all that you can to reasure the guy you are with now of his worth to you... Any relationship which can so easily be destablised in not so stable in the first place. How can you be in relationship and not be able to express yourself for fear of hurting the other beyond the point of return? It is too much hard work for my liking. This guy should not be playing on this and you need not feel bad about it! Also, don't feel like he is the only guy for you ( i am sensing you do feel a lot of that... ). I feel that he does need to do a lot of soul- searching himself and to look at his insecurity and its manifestations and not try to control you so that you don't do anything which could trigger his insecurity! THis is not a solution! This is slavery and being trapped. I hope i have not been too intense but this is a subject very close to my heart and i could feel some of your heartbreak through your writing... DON'T feel like you are not good enough or haven't tried hard enough. Maybe it's time for the other side to try a little harder...

Fuchsia

PS. i would say that you are indeed two steps ahead of him just that you don't want to see that just yet... You have put him on a pedestal and put him ahead of you... Your interaction with others and the positive way that makes you feel is proof enough of that, pay attention to that and see if you agree with me or what comes up for you...

Fushia,
always pleasure to read your posts.
why don`t you post more often?

Nika,
as an addition to what Greg said- I have to say that the biggest part of your frustration comes from his Saturn in opposition to your Sun, ..add Moon/Pluto (his Pluto) square , Saturn opposes your Moon, Venus/Venus square and Mars /Mars tight square and I almost can see whats going on there and its NOT EASY at all...for better or worse - learn what you can from this relationship and move on...thats my 2 cents, sorry if that sounds harsh to you.

Hi there Bissie, thank you very much for the compliment/kind words...
I appreciate it.
I don't post more often cause it is generally time consuming for me to do so and i don't always have the time and so i generally wait until i really feel i need/want to add my perspective on something or when i feel that it is useful or that something really draws my attention like Nika's post did... Not that a lot of other stuff does not interest me and that i don't find it as important or enjoy reading it but just that my time is limited and so i have to keep things to a limit. I am working as a therapist/healer/rebirther actually so i kind of talk to people and deal with people all day in some way so i need to take breaks!

Hope this finds you well, i really like your little person and the quote on the bottom of your posts! Very dynamic and funny! I sense you are a very full of energy person who is able to bring new energy into new situations very swiftly!

Fuchsia

Hi Fuschia ~

i read some earlier posts in which you discuss Petrene and rebirthing. i looked at her website a while ago, but i was wondering if you might explain a little more about rebirthing here.

also, i would love to know what kind of healing you practice....what a wonderful vocation.

love from snowpea

you have wonderful ideas, Fushia ....
do you know that Chiron is the most aspected planet in your chart? that suggest a presence of some kind of healing abilities, more over Pluto(healer) is on your ASc along with Uranus in 1st...Aspects of Pluto to the Ascendant are often said to bestow a strong
degree of physical resistance, as well as the capacity for regeneration and self-healing in the case of health crises. The
person can cope with significantly more than the average population.

interesting personality indeed

Nika , got your message, will e-mail you soon, dear

Hi Bissie, thank you again... I am very interested that Chiron is the most aspected planet in my chart! I have been talking to Woodchiro in the other thread started by Snowpea in this forum and the information he has been sharing with me about this planet as it relates to me is fascinating. Thank you also for telling me about Pluto ( healer ) being on my ascendant. It is true that i am and feel very healthy and always have been ( apart from the usual childhood sicknesses and a little weight gain in my teenage years and in my early twenties which was due to stress and sadness... ) and my physical well-being is getting all the better since i have been working with my inner issues ( with Petrene, Snowpea... )and also using some simple self-healing exercises. Paying more attention to ME and my inner self and loving my and my inner self ( and outer self! ) more. My health has always been relatively good though. I have never been one to take medicines or even aspirins ( the only thing that comes to mind was taking a pain killer when i had a REALLY bad toothache - i had a molar tooth that was coming through and had to be taken out... - and when i hurt my ankle falling off a motorbike and it ached so much in the night that i could not sleep... I had other stuff going on then too that i wanted to "shut off" so i took a painkiller then also ) In some way i seem fairly normal to myself but then sometimes i look at people and realise just how many medicines, supplements etc they take and i realise how well i am doing. I eat a vegan diet. I used to take supplements for a time but stopped when i realised that they were just overloading my body and doing more harm than good... The only issue with my health now which is causing my a little bit of grief sometimes and a lot of joy at others when it goes away, is a mild skin condition which comes up under stress and when i am not taking care of myself. I am working on that though and developing my self-healing experience through it. It will go as soon as i have dealt with what i need to, i know... So yes, self-healing is my thing!

Thanks again for your kind words,

Fuchsia

Hi Snowpea, and what a pretty name you have! Very delicate ... ( and what a wonderful green color snowpeas have. Freshness ... )I have enjoyed your posts on many occasions.

I am glad that you read about Petrene and rebirthing in my earlier posts. Since you have been to her site you have seen that she does a lot more than only rebirthing. She is also an amazing psychic and healer, using many different techniques and ablities.

What more can i tell you about rebirthing? I can't remember exactly what i have already said... I can tell you it has changed my life in amazing and wonderful ways... I can tell you it is responsible in so many ways for where i am today and i almost could not be happier than where i am... I went and studied with Petrene myself and now work with clients here in Greece and the results people are getting are fantastic and very heart warming. I really feel it is such a necessary and basic and necessary thing. Having experienced it myself i know all the positive things that it brings and how it can help...

Rebirthing brings positive change. It clears away old and negative patterns and emotions and things which are holding us back from full joyful expression ( fear, anger, depression etc.) and also puts us into contact with out own innate strength. When we are clear we naturally draw to us the positive experiences we want. We start fresh. Like draws like don't they say, so when we have not got all that negative emotion inside anymore then there is not reason to find it around us all the time and to get involved with it. It may still be around us ( other people who are not so willing to change or who have still got lots of issues or who are nasty or whatever still exist! ) but we can deal with it and see it more clearly and there is no need to identify with or get embroiled in scenarios not to our liking...

It is an emotional, not a mental therapy which means that we don't have to have worked out exactly what needs to change mentally but that it just gets cleared out naturally on an emotional level... It is also very fast ( Petrene works in 1-2 sessions, i work in 1-4 sessions ) and can do in one session what years of any kind of therapy ( psychotherapy etc ) cannot do.

So that's it for now. Any more specific questions, feel free to post here or to PM me...

When i work with people i use Tarot cards and i also use the Bach Flower Remedies and of course Rebirthing. These are the kinds of healing i do professionally for now. I plan to keep studying though and i have also used my hands to help heal ( at least temporarily! ) friends of headaches, back pain etc... It IS a wonderful vocation and like a dream come true though never can i remember actually consciously having dreamt to work in this way with my life and certainly not like this. So it is connected with the deepest part of my being. I love working with people.

What has made you interested in healing?

I trust all is progressing well with your pregnancy which sounds like a wonderful experience you are going through...

How close are you to where Petrene lives in Texas? ( she is in the Woodlands, Texas ( 1 hour or so out of Houston ) in case you can't remember )

Fuchsia