Halo All in One

The long Time coming has finally arrived.
It has been quite some Time since my last post hear.
I see the Words and dates and cannot understand
where that Time has went.
This Place here for Ever grants me Peace,
as it is formidable in that test of Time.
And I am truly thank full for that.
I am blessed to find this Place Still.
Thank You Maria for keeping it safe.
You are a Keeper of the Safe Place and I love You for that.

You see, as everyOne else on this Blue marble,
my Life has gotten busy.
Real busy.
Too busy.
So busy, that I could not keep up with It anymore.
Whirling and twirling
the Daze melded so nicely that I stopped keeping tally.
Mondaze became Fridaze.
Saturdaze became Wednesdaze.
Each day became yesterday and tomorrow?
Tomorrow became today.
My father always said,"The older you get, the faster IT goes".
I would all ways laugh at him, thinking the old man lost his Mind.
WHAT goes faster? I would think. Time is time. It never changes....
He would sigh at the thought of Christmas coming.
He would smile at my excitment writing down my list for St. Nick.
And sigh.
I asked him what he wanted for Christmas
and he would always say....."to be a kid again."
That would really make me laugh.
To think, to be a kid again?!
All I wanted to Be was grown up!
An adult. A person.
I didn't know why any adult would
ever want to be a kid?!
Sheesh.
Adults get to do whatever they want.
They have no one telling them what to do.
Where to go.
When to go to bed.
How much sugar they could eat.
What time to come home.
Who to hang out with.
They were free.
Free to make their lives any way they wanted.
Free to make choices on what ever they wanted.
Free to Be
Whomever they wanted.
All the Time.
They were in charge.
Steadily mapping out their lives to find and fulfill their
wants and needs.
Forging their destiny.
What a great Time that must Be, I thought.
I cannot wait for that Time.
My Time.
Well, as the story goes...
"Life is what happens when your busy making other plans."
Over the course of the years,
The body outgrows the need for Christmas lists
The Mind outgrows the need for classrooms
The child outgrows the need for childhood
while Time keeps tally.
The events of one's Life unfolds before them.
Some with conscious choices
While others taken by surprise in Fate's simple twists.
Schools ends...
Work begins....
Friends come and go
Work continues
Family scatters about
Realationships form and fold
Marriage
Children
Work persists
Holidaze
Vacation Daze
Sick Daze
Work demands
Memories
Hopes
Dreams
Aspirations
Anxieties
Frivolities
Work
Used to be's
Wanna be's
Shoulda beens
Coulda beens
Work exists.
The cycle of Life
turns round and round
like the hands of a clock
The sands of Time
flowing through our fingers
while we watch the clock.
And Wonder where IT went?
As IF,
IT went somewhere.
Time doesn't pass through this Place.
We do.
IF we're not care full
we just might miss IT.
We might miss The Chance
to see right through this Place.
To see deep into the looking glass
to the origins of those sands.
To see into me
beyond my Self
Where
only others exist.
To see Time as a chance
to Be One with All others
within our Self.
The True Intimacy of Intomesee.
Into Me See
has occurred to me.
A Gift has been bestowed to me by the Grace of the UniVerse.
In the midst of my busyness
In the fervor of my angst of Living
While I was occupied with the doings of my Life
I was given a Gift.
Without my doing, my Life was changed.
As my Consciousness came to,
in a familiar stairwell in my house,
Steps I have climbed thousands of times
have brought me there.
Awaking to the stupor of pain
I discovered I had fallen backwards down the Flight
to land outside my Self and body.
As I reMember
I can't recall the event
as most accidents do
that left me lying unconscious and broken.
In the hands of a Greater Force than my will.
The moment was surreal
and forever trapped in my Mind.
I walked my body to bed and fell asleep.
As dawn arrived, my Life had changed.
The intense pain brought me to the ER
with grave looks of concern and scare.
The kind eyes and cold machines that scanned my flesh
revealed the words, "Please sit still, you have broken your neck".
I have broken my C2 and C7 vertebrae.
"How can that Be!?!"
"I am alive. I am still here. I am walking and talking.
You must be mistaken.
Why are you looking at me that Way?"
As I write them now
It is hard to see and say.
It is something I still cannot understand.
It is only by the Grace of God that I can speak this now.
To share this with All of You
who too
seek
Intimacy.
Seeing into me now was is easy as closing my eyes.
Recovery has been slow.
My Mind has melded in realms I can not understand.
Friends have appeared from lost shadows.
Family has healed from hidden hurts.
Strangers stare and quickly look away.
The time crawls now,
as IT did as a kid.
Blending the days together into weeks.
Slowly sitting and staring
Out the looking glass of Time
Out my window as the Seasons change.
Wondering and wandering again
As I always do
in my Mind,
How I am gifted each day with this Allowance of Life.
The ability to wake.
To see. To smell. To Touch. To FEEL.
The ability to be able.
The ability to play.
The ability to work....
The ability to share with Others.
How Blessed I am, to know
You All!
All of You who stare and share into me see hear.
All of You
Who have crossed my Path
for what Ever reason,
in what ever Season
I wish to say thank You
for our Time hear
and for sharing Your Self with me and Others
in Our Hopes and Dreams of changing this Whirled
to the Place of True Conscious Evolution;
where people like Greg and Ginny saw the Vision
of Heaven on Earth.
A Safe Place of Kindred Spirits.
All of You.
You
know Who You Are.
I thank You and humbly ask
for Give ness...
For Giving me
and Your Self
this Gift of Intimacy and Understanding.
I am humbly and Truly thank Full.

I have missed IT hear and wish IT for All of Us.
Each and every One of Us.

Chahles