.....that I wish I could stop by more often.

It's a blessing that business is up and thru' the roof.

It's a curse that it takes me away from that which really feeds my soul.

Miss you all.

Searching! It's so wonderful to see you here. I've missed you and your beautiful and cheerful posts so, so much. I hope time allows you the chance to pop in again sometime soon. I hope all has been and continues to be well with you.

Dani, it's so nice to see you here!
You are dearly missed.

I'm happy to hear business is going well.
A wonder full blessing in these hard times.

I understand how difficult it is to find time
for one's Spirit in the hectic and busy days.
Maybe it's something most everyone here understands,
as the postings are sporadic, yet even so the special
place it fills in our hearts make it an enduring
solemn prayer in simply Being here...whenever
time allows.

I found myself recently looking back to the beginnings
here, reading posts I had never read and hearing from
others I never knew. How special was the time here to them too.
And Greg. How excited he was at making a dream he held
close to his heart manifest. All the love and support all around from family and new friends. It made me smile to imagine how that must have felt.

I've wondered at times if I wasn't holding onto some part of myself from the past I didn't want to lose by coming here.
When I read those posts, I was assured it was much, much more compelling me again and again to here.

Beautiful Visions and Spirits (You being one of those )

Things of such wondrous meaning,
that the seasons of Time cannot wither away.

I love you and hope you and all you love are well.
Please return if you Can.

Halo Dani

How I love these Posts!
Like walking alone in an empty park
and seeing anOther doing the same...
real eyesing it is a friend who you "lost touch with"
pacing the same ground.

I am pleased things are well on your dirt
and hope it allows you to make frequent visits hear
as the Time is Right
to do so....

As Dove and Venus has pointed out
this Place is Special
because of people like You.

Many Happy reTurns~

Hello Dani !

I too wonder why there was once a time I could visit here so often

and now not enough time

What has happened to us?

PD

the special
place it fills in our hearts make it an enduring
solemn prayer in simply Being here...whenever
time allows.

Amen Blue Dove!

It's so nice to see we have never and can never lose our connection.

So glad someone left the door open.

LOVE Bump

Greetings Danny and all

I know you posted some months ago but wanted to say how wonderful it is to see you all in one thread

The business of making a living has taken us all on a varied journey over these many tough economic years. It is a joy to take a moment in time and stop in remember the folks who bring such joy into our lives.

... and that is YOU-all

You're making me cry with your posts about Greg.....
I miss him.......

There's so much happening....so much going on....my aspects are challenging the hell out of me....and I am So.....so....fucking it all up. Greg would be the first one to slap me.....Lisa, you would be the 2nd.....'Ria would be the 3rd.

There's no one safe.....there's no one real.....

I've cut my s-Elf off across the board....and now I am in a corner, looking at these people in my face, just screaming, these un-real people.....these undeveloped, unenvolved people....all wagging their fingers in my face...."The first thing you need to do is..."........ just screaming inside mys-Elf.......I almost cannot see this post to write it....it is the first time in months that I have come clean....come really clean with MY people.......

Dammit.......dammit to hell dammit.......

God you guys.......I've got to get back here........I've got to get sane again.......those people out there.....are any of you in retail???????????

Just tears now......I have'nt said it......I have'nt said it to anyone....I just kept moving forward....and diving deeper into the sludge..........I want Darlin' Dar to say something....somehow, I know he understands....

I'm sorry guys.....I'd like to be all perky and make you laugh....but you know what? There's a reason I've been gone for a few years........ and it's because there was a personal volcano, then an earthquake...then a few tsunamis.....a couple of hurricaines, a few tornados...we wrapped it up with a drought and a flood....all emtioonally. It's been a rough stretch...and whats really hilarious, is that those events are just 'leading'into whats to come for my chart.. ....and as well as I'm handling the current stuff..........dammit dammit dammit......

Please just never mind.......

Mental-Pause......

need

I'm sorry. Everything is just weird now, and I'm still trying to figure out how to handle it and still be (or at least fake) normal.



I love and miss you all.....and I will do my dammdest to put CE back in my regular day...for my own sake....

It's safe here. I forgot that. I'm sorry.

Hey You~

"Out there in the Cold
Feeling lonely
Feeling old
Can Yo hear me?"





I am glad you are hear.

We need You Now.


Please stay and Rant.
I am listening.....

with love and anticipation.

I HEART that quote above.

Come on back in here Dani and we all will listen and walk through this together.

No, I`m not in retail but I know it is a cold lonely world.
You are open to the negative energy suckers and over time it wears on you.
Balance that world with the love and positive energy you will find in this home away from home. We all have that break down moment and do remember, he`s not heavy he`s my brother/sister...
and united we stand here in our private world on the www.

I will look in often for you.

hugs, juni

With all of these fabulous icons Maria has come up with....there's not one that shows one of us flinging ourselves face down screaming and crying against John and Jane Q. Public......the best I can find is the icon that represents what I am trying to avoid:


That said...thank you all for hearing me....for loving me in spite of it all..and for saying that you will stand by me as I fight my way through it......and fight I will. I love you all.
Truly.........Thank you all. I love you all.

Juni my darling......I just re-read your post and completely collapsed on the keyboard in tears. Thank you. Thankyou, thank you thank you....it's been awful....screaming to my grave awful........Thank you.

I'm not in retail, but I'm in social services, and I can relate. I've had an INSANE past couple of months, except, in my case, its mostly just people wagging tiny past mistakes in my face- mistakes that I can't fix NOW. I feel like I'm losing it from being nitpicked at so damn much (so says a Virgo). At this point I'm just trying to see it as motivation to move on.

But yes, I also have A LOT of people to answer to, and it sometimes seems like it's exactly what you're describing. Everyone chanting 'me me me me' with their fingers in their ears and their eyes closed tight. All you want to do is scream.

This week has been one of the worst... I don't even want to celebrate my birthday at the end of this week, but a well meaning friend told me I had to. (My aspects are killing me too, since most everything my chart is at the beginning or end of a sign).

In any case, I haven't been on this site in a long time, but something told me to come along and check it out, so I did...

I hope that things get better for you and me too...

Dear Dani ~ {{{ }}}

It is safe here and we're here
for you always.

Greg would probably be the first to hug
You and let you know that it's ok
to make mistakes along the way,
especially as the world
is hurtling at you from all directions.
It doesn't make you any less
than you are.
It doesn't erase all of the
things you've come to know or Be.

I know just what you mean.
It's one thing to deal with John Q. Public
now and then
and it's another thing to be dealing
consistantly, day after day,
right there in the front line trenches.
A continual challenge
and test of endurance for sure.


I've missed You dearly
and so happy to see you here.
And hope you never feel
uneasy about being real
and honest with us.
It's one of your most endearing
qualities ( gosh, tearing up at that thought
right now...you are just SO beautiful.
Hope you know that!)

I'm off to the trenches myself just now.
But will return and am here listening
and ready as well to share
(god-willing, for what a gift!)

I miss Dar too...haven't seen him
around here so long, sure hope he's ok.

Enchantress! it's lovely to see you
here as well.
Social services...wow, all the things
you must see!
{{{big hugs}}} to you too.

Lovely ladies


Dani, I`m glad you can express your pain and share it. It takes a big chunk of it away to just know others love and respect you and your endeavors.

I can`t wave the love and light flag because I know the soul wearyness this cold , ruthless and greedy business can be about .

There is goodness , much goodness to be had tho . We just need to take the time and "search" under the layers of mud and drag it to the forefront.

Mistakes are made, spiritual lazyness occurs, but we are still the same souls God created and he don`t make no junk

It is a lot of work to re-member who you are and what you stand for. Which is the very goodness I speak of.

Your army is here Dani so lets get gruntled and gusted and break the wall down!

love, juni

I'd like to share these two songs with you searching, the first song because it reminds me that CE is ALL-so like that for you, It ALL-so is " Something for the Pain "


Something for the Pain ~ Redlight King
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mmqyorJ6I3A


When the Dust Settles Down ~ Redlight King
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sjiog_o73SY

I am just soaking up all the love from the 's here tonight. It's like dancing beneath a brialliant array of rainbows. Thank you all for sharing...

I am so glad you came clean with us too Dani, and please know you are not alone. I've been very disgusted by the state of the world these days as well. These truly are trying times we are living in, and many are the times I wonder why we have to go through all this pain and suffering.

But then I try to remember that our souls chose to incarnate at this time for a reason and I do believe we'll make it through our trials and tribulations to the side where peace, love and light prevail, and that we'll get there together, somehow.

Great big hugs and lots of love to you Dani, whether you're laughing, screaming, crying or singing. We're always here for you (just as Blue Dove said) no matter what the weather. Same goes for you Enchantress. I hope to see both of you in here more often.

for you, Dear Dani ~

http://youtu.be/9bKwRW0l-Qk

Thinking of you this fine Sunday
morning. {{{ }}}

SolaneStar,

Wow, I have to say you read me well.

"When the Dust settles down" described so much of exactly where I am at right now.

And the first one....."Something for the pain"..it's so beautiful....and right at the end, someone stroaked the back left side of my hair.

I don't know who it was..but I thanked them.

And now, I thank you.

Thanks Juni.

It IS rough out there right now. So many people are under stress. And sometimes it just blows out of them. Me too I guess.

Others are so tuned into their tech world, they are tuned out of the real world.

These are people who call my business.....wait for the beep while they text and check facebook...leave a message for me to call them back and tell them my hours.

What the hell do they think I had on the machine??? That I'm out getting groceries???? Or.... they want me to call them back to see if we might be open on a day that is clearly not mentioned on the machine....so...... *NY accent*...soooo they think I have secret hours? That they just have to guess?????



The need to disengage is deeply felt and well represented in my chart.

But I can't. So there it is.

My next career is going to be talk radio.....and I have about 20 years worth of material....and it's Those People.

Some day, I will tell you about a new classification of
Mother that I have recently discovered.

I work with them all the time.....it's not like they are aliens or anything...but they ARE a class amongst themselves.

The name I gave them is "Bimp"...or 'Bimp Mom'.

Don't be frightened of them or anything....their only real enemy is other Bimps.

But they are a sad lot to watch.

But thats another post.....thanks for listening.

Hi Enchantress299! !

Social Services...wow....so you REALLY get what I'm talking about...and these days must really test you.

Virgo to Virgo.....this IS all a test...I seem to do ok, and then I go back out in public again.

Using it as motivation is about all we can do....I'm not too far from beginning to say exactly what I think....and I'd be out of business pretty fast.

So motivate and move on......right?

Ok...that takes care of today.....now tomorrow...

Maybe I'll just sleep first...

Thanks Hon,

Dani