Detention - Atonement/Soul Testing Room

Hi Everyone,

I been thinking! You know how those Plutonian think. BIG! Really BIG!
So it's taken it's toll on my being.

I was asked by someone, "What's wrong with you?"
I replied with my Leo acs, "Nothing!"
I'm in the midst of a soul testing period, Karma infliction, Pluto transformation, A 5 planet unknown mystery in my 10th house,
haunted with ESP and telepathic signals, my 31 year Scorpio son is still living with me (?, keep him in mind),
I live in an creepy middle class neighborhood, across from a yuppie jr. middle school, and I have 5 apple trees that are out of control,
and my soul mate lives and works and shops and plays within a few miles of me everyday,
she's angry with me, she's afraid of me, she's would never give up the ambition for true love, (well, for a decade or so, anyway.)
My best friend and I have nothing in common. He's an Aquarius, Aries Mars, Pisces Venus, really selfish with his feelings.
I've watched him, he'll talk constantly about what he does but when I bring up a subject, Astro trip, ears fold inside his head and eyes roll back. I just quit bringing up stuff. This was the first week that we went three weeks with out talking to one another in 4 years.
He has a new girl friend, he's a goner.
All my girl friends are married and live on the other side of the Earth or Continent.
I'm plagued by evil entities that just hang on like that sticky glue that looks like snot.
My carpet needs replaced, and I can't eat corn nuts any more.
I other words, "Nothing"

So, I started this thread for those of you that think you may have problems and need to meditate a bit on it all.
I'll go first. Everyone knows what my problem is, I'm not NICE. So here goes.

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I'm really pissed off at Morning Storm. She knows why too. She's just like my Aquarius friend.
She can dish it out but she can't take it. I hope her dick falls off. She's been talking about her
Scorpio husband so much she became one. I hope her car breaks fail on freeway in the fog.
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What's with the Searching chick. Is she neurotic, paranoid, petty, vindictive, jealous, weird,
all of the about. I can't understand anything she says. She uses 200 words to say nothing.
And she follows me around. I just want to pick her up and shake her. Why? Don't answer that.
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Now what. This site is out of control one week, a quite as mouse the next.
Except for the constant B O L O N G A B A BY O N E. He has been a little less icky lately.
Even some humor. There's always hope. But he's in every freaking thread like a time stamp.
I don't know why I like him other than he has Aqua in his veins, or wallet, both.
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I have met a lot of NICE people here. Had a lot of fun. Learned a lot of stuff.
The ESP gets to me and I become mush. I can see the parallel out comes soon after I meet someone.
The awesome dreams of what could be become real, turning into Oh, I see, it's this way or that way.
Can't do it, to hard, to costly, to much work. I afraid, I don't trust, whatever.
(No dork, this isn't you, don't go into a loop)
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I knew there was a reason my Scorpio son kept coming back to live with me.
Karma. Serve cold with pins, needles, and lots of cash flow.
Just when I got the grand idea for this thread and started dumping on my ghosts,
I took a break. There he was following like a piece of that snot stuff. Can I have a Cigarette.
I try to be up and enthusiastic, he immediately rains on my parade.
Karma. His Saturn in Aries lectures me daily. This time I heard him because I shut out the other psycho babble.
He said I wasn't seeing the BIG picture. This is Saturn talking to Pluto in Leo. Humph!!!
I moved my hand close to the trigger on my rocket launcher.
Go on...He said I should stop fretting about the little twerps that rain on my parade
and focus on a set of people and subjects that mean something to me.
I eased up on the trigger, but only slightly.
I thought. Hmmm....Leos do that...Hmmm
But that means I can't have fun on the L.G. site. Borrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrringggggggggggggg.
So, I'm here meditating. Which is getting pretty Borrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrringggggggggggggg.
But I need to think because the petty people have rained on my parade
with their problems. You'd think something was wrong with them.
Hmmm....I'm thinking big time collaboration project....
au...lots of work!
So I'm staying here for awhile until I am nice or I come up with something.
So far, "Nothing."
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I took another break. There he was in a flash, Cigarette. I asked him when he was getting paid.
Gemini Moon double talk came out. He had been lying about plans, as usual,
waiting for mom to go a traveling to move into her house to sit.
He asked what I was writing so much about. I said he wouldn't understand in 20 years and he didn't believe in it anyway
when are you going to be gone. He said Monday. I don't believe a word he says.
But the Cold dish of Karma started to warm up in my mouth.
I could taste it. It said go, be, do. I'm thinking New Mexico.
Always had a calling for that place.
Maybe in a few months or year.
So I am still here thinking up details on my BIG Pluto Plan.
But nothing's wrong.
I'm just sick of Saturn's jive.
Hmmm........I think I'll lay in the Sun today and flash the neighbors some skin.
May as well try to make somebody happy!
If only Jovette was here. I could de-sensitize her. (Control Freak!)
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Another break, the kid came out and brought me coffee. He said said he would get some money soon and that he just wasn't thinking about things lately (the last 12 years), just worried about work (Yeah, about actually having to do some. Like on your self in this room!)
He said I needed a vaction. If he would just leave then ...
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Yea know. I'm feeling better already.
Au ... the BIG picture.
Tauras line up of sick Mother Earth opposing Scorpio of war and death.
Aquarius opposing Leo ...Aqua you can dream, but Leo is the Project Leader, take it or leave it.
Virgo ...do we really have to love all of them? I will never be a Virgo ever again.
No dork, not you. Calm down.
Geeeshhhh... The Scorpio Kid just brought me some soup and a sandwitch?
What does want now? He's being nice to me.
Saturn's being nice to Pluto?
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Why would anyone want to be nice to Saturn?
Maybe that's the only way out of this room?
*walks over and check lock on door*
Still locked.
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Have you ever heard the saying:
"If you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all"??

And it looks like your little mantra (i.e., "I will be nice, I will be nice..." ad nauseum) failed miserably....

The people here in Lindaland are not the cause for your problems, so why don't you stop trying to make others feel as horrible as you do.

If you want to come here and vent about your problems, that's great, really it is, but don't go around slamming everyone and making them uncomfortable.

You are entitled to your opinion, true. However, this is not the place for obscene language or to belittle others for your own sick amusement.

I am not telling you this because I care about you....I am telling you this because I feel sorry for you and I am tired of your twisted adventures here being detrimental to everyone else's experience.

Please, please, heed your mantra or stop posting here.....I, for one, am tired of the abuse you constantly dump onto others. Go to a shrink if you want to talk about much you hate your life....or at least be more constructive and/or considerate about it here.

Finally, go ahead and hate me and belittle me if it will make you feel better. I just had to speak up. I commend Morning Storm and Searching and others for thus far ignoring your barage of hate, but apparently I am not as enlightened as they because I won't stand for it anymore. I truly wish you peace in your life and I hope one day you lose your intolerable bitterness for humanity. Until then, please stop acting like a spoiled two-year old, it's getting old....

Hey artifax,

I am already in detention. Should have read the sign on the door and saved yourself a lot of bother.

Of course you don't like me. Your acs is opps my acs. Your Venus is opps My Venus.
Your Mars in Gemini is CJ My Uranus. (Same as searching) And your Saturn is CJ my Pluto
And your right on the border of a Virgo Sun which would be CJ my Saturn
So talk about hate. You sound like you pretty much hate me.

What? Your were born right and I was born wrong?

Your also only 23 years old. Lack of wisdom and understanding.

So you see, you missed the point. You just dump more hot coals at the base of my feet,
as I burn here in detention.

I don't hate. I'm just atoning.

Proxy? need a friend? you didnt really explain what is REALLY wrong?

Hi A2,

Sure. You are a nice person. Must be that Venus in Pisces.
I just came to a wall. I don't know where to go with the L.G. site.
There is so much that is non Astrology. And the Karma is not understood by so many.
Even right in their face and they can't detect it.
I think it's cool when it happens. Like instant knowledge with out the cost of dating.
But so few can get pass the initial sock of their own Karma?
I guess it's denial, denial, denial, kill the messenger.
I have to continue my transition. I have doubts about reaching out.
I think BIG and do nothing, like it's not important. I feel a little trapped in my house but that is the way the planets are aligned right now. Grass is greener fever I guess. But you to have sleep somewhere.

I feel T (The girl). I am trying to get past it. I keep hearing little bits about her.
And I get a little down.
I feel good, but nowhere to connect to or with.
My daughter and I have been very close for years. I am weaning her away to be more independent, responsible for her self and family. I have ignored her for a couple of weeks now.
We joked on the phone about it. She knows she has her thing to do now.

I have this tiny tingle of intuitiveness that I may not live a lot longer. I've been denying it of course. Makes long range planning difficult. Hehehe

It's just not my week, I guess. I'm sure I'll snap out of it soon.
But this thread just came to me as an idea to limit myself until I figure things out.
Thank you for caring, A2. I'll see you around. I write to you.

Darwin

hey Dar..I wrote you..bye for now..hang in

proxymoon/Darwin

No. I was not born any more right than anyone else. I also do not hate you. I have also realized that I do not understand you and so I am going to make an attempt.

I realized yesterday, after I had written my post, that it probably sounded a little harsh. It was truly not my intent to bash you, although that is probably how it seems.
I understand that you have problems....we all do. Maybe yours have been brewing for awhile. I realize that there is so much about your life (that I don't know) which has added to who you are now. I simply don't understand why you belittle others.

There is so much that is non Astrology. And the Karma is not understood by so many. Even right in their face and they can't detect it. Everyone is learning here, Darwin...even you. If you feel like you are more enlightened, please share with us. We all love to benefit from what others have learned.

What? Your were born right and I was born wrong? No. Not at all. However, I feel like you are taking a superior attitude with others when you complain about their shortcomings. This is a place of love Nobody is out to get you here. You may even feel better for being here if you try.

I don't hate you. And I don't understand you. That's okay. I just wish you would give this place a try instead of thinking "it sucks" and then making "it suck". Please know that this post is not hostile.

Good Luck, Darwin.

Peace.

Hi Again Artifax,

Thank you for coming back.
I know you are not hostile, just act that way sometimes.
I didn't think that this tread was the best idea when I started it but the One just said go ahead an start it. The content came to me in real time as it happened.
As far as the folks mentioned in the thread, that's old history. They know what I'm talking about. It was supposed represent me venting. I haven't really been that bad for awhile now. And DeathnOMore knowns where I'm coming from, we're a lot alike, except he knows more words and can type faster. After all I put myself in detention, not my favorite place. I admit it's a bit theactical, and drama prone. Sorry, but it was an inspired zap.
After your post, I realised what may happen next. That being you, an almost opposite, (astologically speaking, with loads of Karma aspects), might indeed come back just as you did; to understand. Or better, to show an example of diffeneces and the desire to understand.
So brovo to you (and the One.)
I don't know why things occur the way they do, but they always work out just as the Oneness, the Perfect space, intented.
So, just for you, Miss Saturn, I'll stop acting like a spoiled two-year old.
Like what choise do I have with our aspects. We know each from long ago.

Talk again, brave soul
Darwin

I understand you, Proxy. May peace be with you. Often misunderstood, but you are Loved nonetheless.

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"Maybe it's intuition. Some things you just don't question. Like in your eyes, I see my future in an instant..." I Knew I Loved You Before I Met You--by Savage Garden

aww Death,that was SWEET!
Hey Proxy...glad to hear you are sounding a bit better!

Proxy, can't you come out and play now?
When you feel better we'd like to have
you back. Hang in there.

Proxy,

Just wanted to let you know your'e not alone, sounds like we are going through the same experience and I KNOW how unpleasant it is. I don't have any good advice but it did cheer me up when I read what you wrote, and to know I am not alone with all the mixed up emotions. Hang in there, things can only get better.

Darwin

I have been thinking about this situation and trying to figure out why I have found you to be so irksome. I think it all stems back to the whole Nepmoon incident. You entered very abrasively and I think I immediately thought to myself, "I don't like this guy...I won't like this guy," and then I refused to give you a chance. I realize now that this was not a good way to re-act. I should not condemn you for who you are.

To quote SeaJ, "We are all one, and we are all different". I am beginning to see this now. I acknowledge our differences and agree to not judge you anymore. Another favorite quote of SeaJ's that seems to fit well here, "Ours is not a better way, it is simply another way". We each choose our own path and I will respect yours. I have seen that you have a good heart....I just let my preconceptions get in the way.

Occasionally, very occasionally, my Mars and my Moon join forces....and all hell breaks loose. I apologize for that. I am glad now that this thread came into being, however....it gave me a chance to get rid of this. It seems that this really is the atonement room.

And so, since you gave me one, here goes:

Well, I guess it wasn't as hard as I thought.

Peace be with you, Darwin

~artifax~

BTW, what's with the "Miss Saturn" stuff??

Hi artifax,

Thank you. Very derringdo of you. You have definitely earned respect.
I apologize for the NepMoon days. I won't even explain it except to say I was exuberant in having found LG's books and then this web site. I have been studying Astrology since I was 13. I was able to put so much together from the past studies with just her one book of relationships. Being a long time descender and protestor, coupled with being a long time computer user and seeing the lowest common denominator of humanity on a daily basis, I was just another day (or week) on-line. I now know that people here are not necessarily reality based, but come to give knowledge, lean, and heal. Each of us will have to apply our own filters and mind our own buttons.

So I am very sorry for all the offending comments to all those that received them.
I will refrain from personalizing any comments in the future.

The "Miss Saturn" comment was an Astrology short cut. Your Saturn restricting my Pluto.
Pluto incites and transforms. I think it was SeaJ, also, that said they like to shake things up once in awhile.
Nothing can do that better than a 1st house Pluto. But, Saturn is telling Pluto he has gone to far and is imposing restrictions and limits. I for one do not believe in rules and laws. With laws we are not free. But as in a society, this web site needs laws for the sake of the edification of the unlearned. But in real Karma and Love there are no laws, no restrictions. It is a war between good and not good, God and not god, between Mother Nature and the Father soul, between Sprit and Ego. The point being, it doesn't really matter was is said or done, it's the intent. Hebrews 4:12 explains that pretty well.

That's all I have now. I'm pretty stone cold sober and serious,
and it's borrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrinngggggggggg
I'm going up to get an ice cream and watch people argue in traffic.

Until next time, brave soul,
Darwin

hi Darwin..nice to see you back. yes..the arguing..its all forewarned..and Im with you on the "Relationship Book"! I be talking to ya soon!

Darwin

Wow, it's pretty enlightening to watch astrology in action (the whole Saturn-limiting-Pluto thing). It really makes you open your eyes to what's really happening....beyond the actual disagreements. Thanks for the explanation.

I also wanted to say that I have already noticed your lack of belief in rules I'm a Virgo....we live by them. This makes it a little harder to accept those who don't. You'll have to forgive me. I think my Aquarian Ascendent makes it a mite easier to bear, however

I am not familiar with Hebrews 4:12 (though I will look it up later) but I do agree that intent counts more than action. It seems the intent of this room is becoming more clear to me as opposed to the initial content/action. Can it be?? Am I actually beginning to like you?? See. Knowledge and Understanding go a long way, huh?

Peace
~artifax~

Dear Nepmoon by Proxy.

If I speak --will you think I am following you around?

I am not. I never was. I just always wound up where you were at. No , not always. A lot tho'.
It kind of creeped me out.
I do not know what I did that irritated you so that you went on the attack like you did.
You really hurt my feelings.

I get verbally abused on a regular basis---I too deal with low forms of humanity----but I was soooo shocked to get punched in the stomach here.

Finding this place---like it was for you ---was such a joy.
I have so many questions---there is so much I want to learn here.
But why with all your knowledge would you pick on me for asking them?

I have pondered you since you came here--and I do not know why I care. But we are all here to learn and Love. Everyone is at a different place of spiritual growth. There is nothing wrong with that.

Let me just tell you that I AM reality based.
Here there everywhere. I am fed up with phonies and I refuse to be one.
I might ramble on as I write but I am simply writing my thoughts as they happen.
I do apologize for the fact that my thoughts seem to happen like a really bad Freeway Merger.. LOL

So I propose we start over.
Let Linda's wisdom live on. Perhaps we'll even find out why we petted each other backwards at first.

Also---may I please borrow the 'Miss Saturn' thing? I promise to give credit where credit is due. It most certainly explains life around me right now.
Learning and understanding the planets is the only thing that is going to help me survive Man's inhumanity to Man. Or WoMan.

Peace ----and I hope you find what you are lOOking fOr.

Dani

Dear Sweet Dani,

I have been studying our case from the beginning with curiosity, perplexity, and some very powerful telepathy presents in my EYE concerning you.

You have definitely been under my physic skin.
I would like to try to solve this with an Astrological understanding before I bring out the smiley faces and hearts. It has become too mysteriously interesting to let fade away.

The meeting EVENT;

Your Leo Uranus cj my ACS (like Sun) - He irritates me! (I don't know you exist yet.)
Your Gemini Mars cj my Uranus - He really irritates me and Mars is going to tell him now!

The 12th House surprise Event;

My Saturn cj your Sun and Pluto in your 12th house of hidden matters.
Saturn doesn't blink an eye.
The trail is quick, guilty of using bad words in front of a Virgo, my Pluto tries to defend his right to speak the truth.
No mercy, Scorpio Judge, Pluto is locked out.

Analyses and Evaluation Event;

We have the double Sun-Saturn cj both ways. -
This is empathetic and protective for Sun, at the same time Saturn must speak to (correct) Sun or gets sick. We were both getting sicker as time pasted.

Pluto comes back disguised as Neptune to talk to girl about other girl
(see big long thread, better yet, forget big long thread.)

My Pluto and Neptune really get under your skin this time, but in a mixed emotional state of ebbs and flows.
My Saturn has your Pluto in an up roar. Your Sun is rebelling.
My Sun is rebelling also, but my Neptune dare not speak.

The Physic Probe EVENT;

Your probing my EYE, your Mercury in Libra cj my Neptune.
You send me good messages from our Trines, at the same time your Virgo Pluto is pounding my sick Saturn. My Neptune and Moon In Libra cj your Mercury and Venus are freaked out.
My Neptune is counting the days on a calendar and showing. telling Pluto , type faster, the searching is going to blow any time, we're going down any minute. My Mercury and Mars in Aquarius are writing script and passing notes to Pluto and Saturn. One reads, take her out, she's expendable, don't fail the mission. Another reads, Tell her a story, lighten her up. The pace is intolerable. The physic intensity is now always ON.

The real Millennium Madness Event;

Searching blows at the funeral parlor.
I reply to the insanity. Neptune crawls behind her crystals, Pluto and Saturn through hands up in air.
Saturn makes press speech. Moon and Uranus get motorcycle ready to ride off into sunset.
Nothing happens. Calm is restored.

The Hotel Tear Jerk Event;

The number rolls, I'm curious. Is it her? What is she doing?
No, not her. A lost and unhappy traveler.
I am stirred, and shaken. I go creatively wacko.
The number rolls again. Is it her?
No. It's searching, with some strange Pluto curse message.
I ponder deleting my post.
The number rolls again. Is it her?
No. searching again.
I will never return to the Hotel, I think.

Meanwhile, back at the threads Event;

Activity picks up, I get lost, I miss action and can't find a thing.
Strange new people come on to the scene. I listen.
It gets wacky.
I ask a question.
Answered with explosive dribble, and underlying control issues.
OK, next.
Au, confront time.
Nope. Denial or doesn't remember. Retaliator remark received.
Reason for being here at L.G site fades.
I post this thread.

The Astrological Wonderment EVENT;

The One does it's thing. All are amazed.
Searching posts. I bit late, expected you a couple of days ago.
Now what do I do? Too many words, to many emotions,
to much math!
I enlist my J&J Lab assistant and a number cruncher to look for explanations.
But, like they say in Real Estate, time is of the essence.
So if the degrees alters this a bit, it won't make any difference.

The Love Connection EVENT;

I re-read buddy's physic thread.
The characters there Artifax, Tanya, TigerMoth.
Didn't know any of them then. I do now.
I was perplexed. I check the aspects.
Things don't mesh. We have great aspects.
Trine Mercury - Mars both ways - How NICE!
Trine Sun-SUN, Moon - Fairy Godmothers stuff;
CJ Venus, Mercry-Moon, Neptune - ESP and mush;
Trine Neptune-Venus, Jupiter - more ESP, mush, Luck;
Sextile ACS, Venus, Mercury-ASC, Pluto, Uranus - Hot stuff, Karma bonds!;
Uranus CJ Pluto - restore to health, irresistible and unstoppable together?

Make Heads or Tails EVENT?

So what's this all mean?
Hmmm ... Got me!
I'll take a crack at it.
Bad timing, and misunderstanding.
It happens. What's that saying, "Stuff Happens."
I'm sorry I hurt your feelings. I'm sorry I called you bad names.
I have absolutely nothing against you except your were perceived to be in my way and you were definitely in my EYE, while at the same time my Saturn wanted, needed, to tell you things.
But I felt I was restrained in fear of losing my access again.
So I ignored you. I perceived that you were acting jealous and spiteful.
I didn't want to confront you again.
I think the hotel post got to me because I was already down, and then wham.

You say, "I have pondered you since you came here--and I do not know why I care."
I'll say! You pondered in to my dreams with a pouting Pluto face that would scar a monkey.
You don't know why you care? Well, I might. So, I'm going to tell yea.

The Future EVENT!

From my Saturn to your Sun, My Neptune to your Venus, My Moon to your Uranus, ....
Sell everything you have. As the money is being collected and stored safely in the bank,
do the following;

1. Give notice to all in your life that you are leaving.
2. Get some good maps of Colorado and plan a move to that new retirement area.
You can set up a store front selling concessions, renting sporting goods, making tourist things.
3. You'll be close to nature. You'll have 300 days of Sunshine a year, but with enough snow as not to get home sick. And when someone tells you to jump on a plow, tell them to do it themselves.
When someone backs into the garage, laugh all you want, but help them pick up, if you want.
Leave the ghosts in the rink, stuff all the guilt in a size 14 skate on the back shelf.
4. With Libra, Gemini, and Leo the move will be a piece of cake.
Go be your Sun Dani. Save the searching for your 12th house spiritual connection with nature.
Put Mars down for a nap while you make love to God with your Neptune in Scorpio.

This is of course a bit idealistic, dreamy, and may be too much fun for a serious reality base Virgo.
It may take years for the Sun to get the message. Buts that's my story and I'm sticking to it.

Hugs and Sorry
Love and Enlightenment ,
Darwin

LOL Ok --You blow my mind with how much time you give to anothers' sign.
I am either too selfish or too busy trying to understand my own and the people I am around all the time---If I can understand them then I won't have to bury anymore bodies.
When a Virgo snaps--they snap.

It is feast or famine with people. Either there are too many---or I have no one to talk to.
Soon I will go from too many to only my family.
4 days.
Solitude is very sad.
Too much company is twice as bad.

My sober friends quit calling a few years ago.
My drunk friends quit calling when I sobered up.

I can only go so far in conversation around here--because no one else thinks like I do.
I had a therapist once who said he had never met anyone who processed info like I do.

I don't see what the big deal is---but it certainly gets on people nerves.
Unless they need a piece of me --then I am oh so handy to have around.

My husband is one person who never treats me like that.
We had some rough times but Love conquers all.
Too many people died all at once right when we first got married---and neither one of us was equipped to handle it.

My Nancy Drew did not recoginize your Nancy Drew.
Not until later at the caramel corn--then i knew it was you.
I went back to Nancy to re-read you.
Huh!?
You were kind of nice!
And funny too.

I did not know what to think --so i did not say anything. I just pondered it.

At the funeral parlor--I realized you and nancy were only stroking with an angle.
Mistrust.

I pondered.

Came to this forum to check the hotel.

Saw this thread.

Ah Ha!!! Repentance!!!!

Good Now we'll talk!!

Read the mantra. Lol'd.
Put music to it in my head.

Saw what you said about Auriel and choked.

She's the only Aquarian that does not drive me crazy being an air-head.

Read on.

Silent.

Boom. There it was again.

Came here many times to re-read it and try to understand.

Pluto would wake me at night and I would stare at my little glo in the dark stars on my ceiling and wonder why the site that gave me such joy now made me so sad.

Came to Linda land every day hoping to get that feeling back. The feeling I embraced when I found this place.

Yeah it has gotten weird here. And I do not think I am entitled to feel that way because I have only been here since last November.

But everything has gotten weird.

My church--my kids---my job---my little town---my country----Colorado won't make the weird go away.

I am here to work out 20 years of bad Karma.
I have only a few years before Saturn returns to my sign and I have much to repair before then.

Slowly I turn--step by step------

This is where it all started and this is where I must fix it.
Plus it is all tangled up with my sister stuff too.
Did you ever hear about the golfer who had a heart attack on the 6th hole??
After that it was a long game.
Hit the ball and drag Harry.
Hit the ball and drag Harry.

That is what it is like to be business partners with an unenlightened Aquarian.

It is my karma.

My EYE knOws it is lOOking at sOmething--but it is still trying tO fOcus. It's new/old and hasn't been used in a long time.
Plus there's all that Gin and Rum residue.

This same girl who packed her bags and headed for LA---who skipped the bags at another time and headed for the Appalachians---got slapped hard in the face when she became a Mom.

That's when I stopped and looked behind me at all the dead bodies and asked aloud 'Did I do that?'

So I am new at being nice too.
And people are so screwed up it ain't always easy.

I have much to attone for too so this thread does not have to be all for you.
Let he who is without sin become a politician---no thats not right-----

The Future knOws when I will be done.

Pluto keeps a dishin'

tthhhpptt!!!!

Dani

200 plus is my guess---want me to go count 'em?
I can speak two paragraphs without a breath too---and when I sing---they Mike the orchestra 'cause otherwise you won't hear them play. nnay.

Proxymoon,
you are very honest! That's to be commended. I am a Leo, I understand how it gets sometimes. =)Hey, I understand ALL of it, actually. Maybe this is a little twisted, but I kind of giggled reading through this thread. Your way of putting things is at the same time serious and funny. HONEST. I like that so much. And you know...sometimes, people need to vent, and atone, and just get it out of their system. Which you did. Sometimes, we get a little to "fluffy" in here, and it's hard to be "fluffy" if you're grounded with all these nit pickety little things.
Here's to hoping your palace gets recarpeted and that the kid gets a job, and that you can have some Corn Nuts too!
Light and Love,
synergy

Heres the perfect example of someone ranting and raving,and putting people down. Darwins comment that he/she" hoped morning storms dick falls off"? I see no comments here from Greg to be nice. Guess he fiqured Darwin had that covered with the I will be nices in between the cut downs. Nice!
Does the word Psycho mean anything to you people?

PROXYMOON,

HAVE YOU EVER WENT OUTSIDE AND LAY DOWN FLAT ON THE EARTH? (you can hear her heart if you lay there long enough). ESPECIALLY AT NIGHT, WHEN THE WORLD STOPS AND ALL IS QUIET.

HAVE YOU EVER HUGGED A TREE? THEY LOVE YOU TOO.

HAVE YOU DANCED IN THE RAIN?

HAVE YOU BATHED NAKED IN THE FULL MOONLIGHT?

HAVE YOU SEEN DOLPHINS PLAY IN THE SEA BY A FULL MOON NIGHT IN THE LIGHT?

HAVE YOU DRANK EARLY MORNING DEW?

HAVE YOU SAT IN A FIELD OF WILDFLOWER'S AND HEARD HER LAUGHTER?

HAVE YOU WENT ON AN EARLY MORNING WALK IN MAGICAL MIST TO NOWHERE IN PARTICULAR?

WELCOME TO THE REAL WORLD LOVE!

PEACE, LOVE & LIGHT TO YOU ALL*WAYS,
Sea*J

quote:

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Lord, make me an instrument of your Peace
where there is hatred, let me show love
where there is injury, let me give pardon
where there is doubt, let me have faith..
where there is darkness, let me spread Light
where there is sadnesss, help me find Joy!
Grant that I may not so much seek...to be understood
as to understand
to be loved...as to love
Then.. miracle shall follow miracle
and wonders shall never cease.
St. Francis of Assisi.

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"U R A bright star dancing in the LIGHT."

Proxymoon, As I read your post, I saw your
inner child peeking out at me.

Are you familiar with Aromatherapy?

I feel you may benefit from Pine Needle Oil,
which helps with emotional stress. Pine Needle Oil grounds us & re-news our connection to the Earth.
6 drops in the bath would be enough.
Or 3 drops on your pillow, or in an aroma diffuser.
Also, Blue Chammomile is good for healing your inner child. Very comforting & soothing.
Peppermint oil also is good for this & a little cheaper than the Blue Chammomile.
Peppermint oil connects us with our inner child.
Lemon oil relieves mental tension, and also, returns us to the "Real World." Wich is Love & LIGHT.
If you don't have access to an aroma diffuser, you can put one or two drops on a light bulb.
and Lavender is balancing & a good oil for overall healing.
Peace, SeaJ

Dear Searching, kNOW that NO situation is ever irre-verseible!

You can re-verse any situation.
Remember, "There is more to laugh about than to cry about in this lunatic asylum."L.G's. Star Signs
Just see it from another angle.
Your angels will help you.They're with you right this very minute as you sit here reading this post.BELIEVE IT kNOW it NOW.

Peace, SeaJ
psss
shhh listen to her song. she's singing a song of LOVE to US.
ATONE means to become AT ONE with the
UNI-VERSE.
One Song of LOVE. "Silence is Golden"
"QUITE"

Hey Buddy, Whadya say; instead of worrying, let's not let others' words bring us down.
Let us re-verse the situation.
Let us
RE-WIRE the WEIRD vibes.
HOW?

Let's LIGHT-en UP a bit and just Laugh at it ALL. It really is funny? Can you not see the humour here?

Now don't get me wrong, I don't like laughing at the expense of other people, but since what we're discussing is already here, let's learn to laugh at it.
Peace, SeaJ

Hey Proxz--they're on to you man---

I have a question for you.---One of those that woke me up.

I might be way ---Hway--off base here----but by any chance---are you 'Little Boy Blue'?

What did you mean when you said you CAME BACK disguised as Nepmoon---?

-----you're writing styles are somewhat similar-------

Dani Searching on------

Proxymoon,

I see that you come around here, still. Good. Here's hoping you come around every single day.

There is a part of me that needs to read some of the words that you write. Not just the universally recognizable inner listlessness that you captured here in this outpouring, but the unique way in which you expressed those thoughts.



That's what's drawing me in..and helping me heal. Words at this moment are really failing to express how inexplicably choked up I am right now. How alive, and humbled by your ability to speak through this accursed conditioning and get to the heart of the matter..with yourself.

Oh I can point a finger like nobody's business. And I can play the blame game with myself too. I'm hardcore masosado-masochist that way. But you touched upon it, and rolled around in it, and didn't really seem to express a (bleep)load of blame..just wrote the feelings. That eludes me right now. I'm not sure why.

Thanks for helping me get closer to identifying it.

Come by soon.

daf